It's to much!

My last blog was a passionate plea to hear from God. He heard me. I have so many things flying around in my head right now from the Lord I am afraid I will lose one or two of them. I really really want to keep them all. I know write them down and all that, but they keep growing and expanding.
- He is telling me that I will be learning about hiddeness like Esther in her year of preparation for the presence of the King
- He is telling me He is calling me to walk a line of balance between the IHOP world and the First Assembly of God world so as to learn from both sides and to be an example to both sides
-He is telling me that there is SO MUCH MORE of Him than what I have been satisfied with in the past.
- He is telling me that He will let me go as deep as I desire to go. I just have to do it.
- He is telling me there is a cost to every gift He gives but it is only the giving away of what steals from me. The costume pearls for the real ones. He is showing me all of the false treasures I have clung to that have kept me from the things I truly desire
- He is telling me the time for change is NOW and will continue over the next year.
- He is telling me to stay in step with Him and not run ahead, to walk at His pace and believe He knows how to get where we are going on time. (this one is a warning and not just for ME but for IHOP)
There is more but I don't have language yet for some of them.
We had Youth Winter Camp this last weekend and wow God showed up. Even as I say that though I am hungrier than I was a moment ago. Yes He showed up in many ways but we did not get ENOUGH!!
I guess ALL of the words that are flying around in my head are pointing me the same way MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE
MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MOREMORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MOREMORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MOREMORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MOREMORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MOREMORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE
MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Whatever the cost - NO I will not see cost only WORTH anything I could give away for any tiniest measure of the knowledge of God is NOTHING......Nothing.....Nothing.....Nothing.....Nothing....
Father Give me the courage to buy Gold from you at the cost of my fools gold.
Amen

Hearing the voice of God

If there is one thing in my Christian walk that I do not yet understand it is this. Hearing the voice of God. People in Bible times KNEW what the will of God was. There was no, "well maybe it is and maybe not", no wishy washy nonsense. It was always very clear and precise. No questions.
The children of Israel had a pillar of cloud/fire to lead them around. Others were visited by angels. What is the deal! I am jealous! I want to be led like that!
My little family is at a major cross-roads. I feel like the Lord is leading us one way, but I am not sure of how to get there. Wisdom would tell me one thing, but my heart another.

What I want more than anything is a CLEAR WORD that cannot be denied! Clear direction that cannot be argued with or misunderstood.

I so desperately want to know what HE wants me to do! I so desperately want to understand why I am in the places that I am in! I so desperately want some clarity. Is that so much to ask?

Father I am your son. I deeply long to be obedient and walk in a way that pleases you. I want to go where you are leading me. Give me wisdom and revelation of your will for my life. Put my feet on your path and guide me. Even if your path is one I don't particularly want to be on I will be happy to know that I am where YOU want me. All I ask is that you make it abundantly clear to me what path that is and how to get from here to there. If you just want me to stay put then make that clear too. I love you

Anyone that reads this Please I beg you pray for me! I must know!

Enjoying Jesus

I was worshiping a few days ago and I asked God, as I often do, to give me Wisdom and Revelation. I am so glad I did. Almost immediately I started understanding things about God in a deeper way than usual. Head knowledge became heart knowledge and my emotions expanded. I began to just really enjoy everything about Jesus.
I have experienced things like this before but today was deeper than before. I felt like I could swim in that sea of pure joy forever and never get tired and never get bored. I was in the midst of this when the Spirit whispered to me. "This is really all I ever want from you. You get to do this forever!" My joy overflowed! God's highest desire for my heart is that I endlessly enjoy Jesus. Isn't that what Jesus said. The first and GREATEST commandment is to love the Lord your God with all of your heart mind and strength!!!

Wow how different is God than any of His imitators! They all say, "just serve me and do what I tell you to do and maybe just maybe you will get to come and be with me forever!" How horrible a promise! No wonder the world hates religion!

The real God says, "Come and love me for I am infinitely enjoyable! Come and enjoy me forever and ever that is all I want from you!!!!!"

This experience was part of something I am beginning to study out.
"The Burning I have for you is the burning of Delight" I will take more time to discuss that reality as I understand it better, but this, I think, was a taste of it! What He wants most from us is for us to enjoy HIM forever!

yeah I can do that!