have you ever stopped to think about the treasure that the Lord is. today I was feeling pretty sorry for myself. Not all of the circumstances of my life are exactly the way I would like them to be. In the midst of that I was reminded very briefly that the Lord is my great reward.
God told Abraham that HE would be his great reward. The Levites were told that instead of land that God would be their eternal inheritance. David called God His portion in the land of the living. The faithful in the book of Hebrews were looking toward things and living for things that they never saw while they were alive. Paul counted all the accomplishments of his life as rubbish in comparison with the glory of KNOWING Him. All of them counted God as their reward. He was the treasure of their lives. I want this.
Today the Holy Spirit very gently lifted my heart out of being bound by the earthly rewards that I desire and have been angry with God for not giving to me. I got a glimpse of being satisfied with his beauty. I got a glimpse of counting the knowledge of God as the greatest treasure. I don’t have it yet. Not really, but it loosened the grip of self – centered materialism just that much more and a whiff of freedom made its way in.
Oh God take me all the way!
3 comments:
josh, i am going throught the exact same thing today! funny how God works with linking people together and directing our steps (and our clicks). thanks for sharing. i always appreciate your transparency.
I understand the desire. I know that all I want is to gaze upon His beauty but I feel trapped. For example, I want to sit in the prayer room or even in my own house and just wait on the Lord but my 3 month old son won't tolerate that very well. Or, I'm rather tired of doing ministry without the presence of the Lord but how do I wait on Him without abandoning those to whom I have committed myself to in ministry. Does that make sense? I just feel very trapped right now and I don't know how to just gaze...
trapped is a good word - That is part of what lead me to this. God is moving my life in directions I don't like. Taking me places I don't want to go and making it necessary for me to do things I do not want to do. Things that steal time and energy from me and from my family and from the pursuit of God, but all of it. Every step, is directed by His hand and is leading me toward loving Him more - do I understand that - no but I choose to treasure it.
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