If there is one thing in my Christian walk that I do not yet understand it is this. Hearing the voice of God. People in Bible times KNEW what the will of God was. There was no, "well maybe it is and maybe not", no wishy washy nonsense. It was always very clear and precise. No questions.
The children of Israel had a pillar of cloud/fire to lead them around. Others were visited by angels. What is the deal! I am jealous! I want to be led like that!
My little family is at a major cross-roads. I feel like the Lord is leading us one way, but I am not sure of how to get there. Wisdom would tell me one thing, but my heart another.
What I want more than anything is a CLEAR WORD that cannot be denied! Clear direction that cannot be argued with or misunderstood.
I so desperately want to know what HE wants me to do! I so desperately want to understand why I am in the places that I am in! I so desperately want some clarity. Is that so much to ask?
Father I am your son. I deeply long to be obedient and walk in a way that pleases you. I want to go where you are leading me. Give me wisdom and revelation of your will for my life. Put my feet on your path and guide me. Even if your path is one I don't particularly want to be on I will be happy to know that I am where YOU want me. All I ask is that you make it abundantly clear to me what path that is and how to get from here to there. If you just want me to stay put then make that clear too. I love you
Anyone that reads this Please I beg you pray for me! I must know!
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This will make you mad at me. Don't think I am telling you this as a “Thus say the Lord”. I am not being prophetic I am just being real and showing you that God gets his way despite our inability to perceive it. I have just been pondering this and it is making me a little angry with God. (Though I love Him dearly) Lately Isaiah 6 has been ringing in my spirit. That word has been spoken often and in my experience it often correlates with some confirmation in my daily life. Truly KNOWING God and His ways makes us undone. But, Josh I would exhort you to read Isaiah 6 to the end. Not just the "send me" stop version. That way you can be really mad at me and get even more violent to hear God clearly.
Mmmm interesting. I will have to chew on this for a while...I'm not mad, not at all
I completely understand and feel the same way. What boggles me is how I can feel like I heard the Lord clearly and then start questioning it within 24 hours. I crave a word from the Lord but honestly I don't think I will ever be satisfied with anything less than an audible word or some crazy prophet walking up to me and saying "Thus saith the Lord..." Sometimes I wonder if God just chuckles at me but I want to live like the apostles and Moses and others who never questioned what they heard. They talked to God as one talks to a friend. I crave that. It's really hard to believe something to be true and from the Lord when there is no affirmation in the natural. I am praying for you and me that God will grant faith to believe and that He will grant dreams and words that are full of life and guidance...words of hope, to keep our trust firm.
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